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War of Hearts Release News

TL;DR – For those of you who just wanna skip the long post and rather just know what it’s actually about – I’m cancelling the rest of my releases for this year and moving them to next year. I don’t have new release dates for you yet. Please note the date on the War of Hearts preorder on all sites has been changed to the end of February because I had to give them a date. I’m working towards an earlier release than that. My reasons for cancelling these releases (War of Hearts & Jack Kingsley’s book from the Ashton Scott world) are below.

Last week, I let you guys know I was pushing the War of Hearts release by two weeks. I gave you one of the reasons, but not the full reason because it was very personal. However, I want to share it with you now because it will help you understand my current decision. It may also be something fellow authors can relate to, and I think it’s important to share these kinds of things because without honesty about our experiences, what real benefit does our indie community provide?

I’ll have been publishing for five years in November. I’ve found a lot of joy in every book I’ve written, in every marketing step I’ve taken, in every friendship I’ve made, and in the success I’ve found. A lot of authors will tell you they love the writing and wish they didn't have to do the marketing. I'm not that author. I love both. Writing and publishing does not feel like a job to me. It feels like a blessing, and one I am very grateful for, because for the twenty or so years before I started publishing, I worked in retail jobs that gave me none of the satisfaction and joy this does.

However, something hasn’t been right for a while now, and I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. Friends have told me to be careful of burnout, but I’ve suffered that already and made my way through it. This didn’t feel like that. Burnout for me felt exhausting. Like, bone-weary tiredness I struggled to drag myself from. I didn’t want to write. I didn’t have the same enthusiasm for marketing and all the business stuff I had to do. This, what I’ve been going through, isn’t that. I want to write. I want to run my business. I’m just flailing a little.

I’ve been struggling to figure out my place again after taking time off when my mother passed away. I thought I’d found myself again mid-year. I published three books that were very successful. My latest release, Ashton Scott, has sold more copies in its first month than my previous bestseller that earned me a place on the USAT list. I should have been happy, right? I should have been proud of myself, yes? I was happy and I was proud, but it’s lost its shine. More than either of those two things, I feel empty.

I once thrived in the fast-paced rush of this industry. Now, not so much.

Fast forward to my current book. I’ve been working around the clock writing War of Hearts. I love this couple. I love this story. I was on track to have it ready to publish next week after buying myself two weeks to do that in. But I felt ill about it, and deep down I knew why. I just had to go through a whole lot of stress to get to the point where I could admit it to myself. And that stress is the reason why I had to push the book once already. For the first time in my life, I suffered panic attacks. I didn’t know what they were when they started. I honestly thought I was having a heart attack. My daughter has suffered them for a few years now, so she was able to help me through. But when she told me I need to push my release, when usually she’s hardcore telling me to work harder and get that shit done (yes she’s my little cheerleader when I wanna give up), I knew I needed to sit back and assess things.

Here’s the thing I finally figured out… I don’t feel the same joy in this whole write, publish, repeat fast process anymore. It doesn’t light my soul on fire anymore, which means my writing is suffering.

I could publish War of Hearts in its current state and know you would enjoy it. But that’s not enough for me. I don’t just want you to enjoy it. I want you to love the fuck out of it. I want the words in every story I write to cause you to stop breathing for a second while you look up from it and think “Holy fuck, yes!” I want you to linger over the words, feeling them deep in your soul. I want you to connect with my characters so you either love them or hate them. I don’t want any in-betweens. I blame King for this. His books reminded me of why I love writing so much. They reminded me of the importance of creating characters with so much soul that readers can’t help falling in deep love or deep hate with them. Ashton, too. There has been such a divide between readers on these characters, and that’s where the magic is for me. That’s what I’m missing in this write, publish, repeat landscape.

I had a big vision for War of Hearts when I first imagined it. And I’m disappointed to admit that I’ve missed the mark so far with what I’ve written. This story needs to be pulled apart and rewritten so you can feel it deeply the way I do when I think about it.

And that is why I’m pushing it indefinitely. Trust me, from a business perspective, this is the absolute worst decision I could make. This decision hasn't been easy to come to. But I’m done with making decisions from a purely business perspective. I’m done with not feeling the joy anymore. I choose to work for love again, because I used to work for love. It’s just that my goal posts have changed. I choose business decisions that affect my soul rather than my bottom line.

“You are a victim of the rules you live by.” ~ Jenny Holzer

It’s time for me to change my rules.

“Will you devote yourself to your joy and allow that to be your offering to the world?” ~ Danielle LaPorte

Nina x

  1. Jenny Brightman Harris

    October 26th, 2018 at 3:31 pm

    I know there are times in our lives when the most important thing is taking care of me first. This is your time the people who “love the fuck” out of your writing as you said will be here. We would rather have you be you then push you into something that in the long run will make things work. I am a huge fan and supporter take care of you and know that we are here with cheers if you need them.

  2. authorninalevine

    October 29th, 2018 at 10:38 pm

    Thank you, Jenny <3

  3. Tracy Harris

    October 28th, 2018 at 1:51 pm

    I’m really sorry you are going through this and I hope at some point you can write again! I love your books you’re a great author but I understand when your body/mind hits a roadblock. I have Transverse Myelitis one day it just hit me no rhyme or reason. I guess I’m explaining this because there are days for me when my body stops working and although my mind wants it to do the things it use to do it’s frustrating when it can’t. Take time for you step away put it in a box six months later take it out see if that’s what you truly want to do!! Good luck

  4. authorninalevine

    October 29th, 2018 at 10:42 pm

    Thank you, Tracy <3

  5. Joanne J Landucci

    October 29th, 2018 at 4:53 pm

    N8na… whatever u need to do to get well in your heart..I’m sure or I hope u know, that your fans have your back… we’re your CREW..❣

  6. authorninalevine

    October 29th, 2018 at 10:42 pm

    Thank you so much, Joanne! <3

  7. Dawn Marie Burke

    October 29th, 2018 at 6:45 pm

    I LOVE your books and of course I don’t want to wait for the next one but that’s because you’re that AMAZING of an AUTHOR!!! I have ALL of your books and have spoken to you before about how profoundly you touched me so I want you to take ALL the time you need for yourself because if you don’t put yourself first who will? Trust me we will still be here patiently waiting for your next book because we LOVE you!! Everyone needs to stop and smell the roses sometimes I hope that you get what you need both spiritually and emotionally God Bless

  8. authorninalevine

    October 29th, 2018 at 10:43 pm

    Thank you for your kind words, Dawn <3

  9. Nicole Boatman

    October 29th, 2018 at 6:47 pm

    I am bummed about the release date but, I respect it.
    I love your books and king was the most frustrating with all the love hate ups and downs. If that is what you are going for is OMG I will be looking forward to it and cannot wait to read it!!
    When my oldest son died I looked at things differently and changed a lot. So I hope you find what you are looking for and I’m ready to read it when you are ready!

  10. authorninalevine

    October 29th, 2018 at 10:44 pm

    Thank you, Nicole. And yes, that’s what I’m going for – all the feels! <3

  11. Vivian Allen

    October 30th, 2018 at 5:39 am

    I suffer from General Anxiety Disorder so I feel for you. You are one of the most awesome writers I have ever encountered. Please, take a few steps back, some deep breaths, a few solitary walks, and a couple of evenings with your tribe…and just live and let live. Please know that when the time is right and ready to hit that “publish” button…your loyal readers will be here ready to “one click t”! Take it easy and easy does it babe‼️❤️🤗

  12. authorninalevine

    October 31st, 2018 at 1:18 am

    Thank you, Vivian <3 I'm taking lots of time away and it is helping a lot 🙂 xx

  13. Silvia

    November 9th, 2018 at 3:50 pm

    I always enjoy your books, especially King’s story. It takes alot of courage to make the decision you made. Your fans will be patiently waiting for your next book. I hope you are able to find the joy and passion in writing again.

    Good luck!

  14. authorninalevine

    December 12th, 2018 at 3:43 am

    Thank you, Silvia <3

  15. Jo

    December 9th, 2018 at 9:50 am

    I am glad you are finding Joy again in your writing. I will wait as long as it takes for any books written . I am sending you a big bear hug.

  16. authorninalevine

    December 12th, 2018 at 3:44 am

    Thank you so much, Jo <3

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